But the skin. I was shocked when I looked at photos from last weekend when I was in my swim suit and jumping off the dock. My house doesn't have a full length mirror in it, so I don't have the opportunity to really see what my body looks like other than photos. I loved every minute of jumping off the dock with my kids and friends, but when I saw what my body looked liked, I felt embarrassed. Not embarrassed enough to keep me from doing it again right now or to hide the pictures, but enough that the guilt I feel over the amount of money we are spending on my skin removal surgery diminished quite a bit.
Silly, right? I should feel proud at what I have accomplished. But instead I feel embarrassed at the flopping skin. When I see it, I wonder how the hell I was ever running or playing squash with it flopping and flapping around. I feel like the saggy-baggy elephant.
My surgery is in just three months and I cannot wait! I hope the surgeon is able to take care of a lot of the loose flopping skin and I can feel more comfortable with my new, smaller body.
|Skin in the upwards and outwards motion... Not so pretty!|