Summer sucks ass. Veggies? Naw. How about hot dogs and marshmallows over the fire. Walks? Not in the +25 weather we had a lot of this summer and the hellish bugs. Sun to keep me energized? How about the sun to cook me so fast I have to hide in my basement.
I got off track. Really off track. Since March I have been losing the same 5lbs over and over again. I am mad at myself for wasting all of this time. The only thing that has kept me from going off the deep end has been Tina.
Tina, another awesome blogger who used to live in the NWT, is trying to lose some weight as well. We started a blog together to encourage each other. A goal was set of each of us losing 50lbs by Feb. 1st. What is on the line? A trip to Edmonton, thanks to my awesome husband, to finally meet Tina after years of talking online. Once a week we check in on this blog and share how we are doing. Without that this summer I know I would have done a whole hell of a lot worse.
I haven't talked much on my weight loss on the blog this summer probably because I have been hiding from everyone!! So time to come clean and tell everyone how lazy I have been. And I need the encouragement everyone was so generous with over the winter and spring. I feel odd asking for encouragement, but honestly it really helps me. And if that is what it takes, then I will ask for it.
Today was my check in day with Tina and I am going to share what I wrote on our blog here today too:
Last week I was doing great and then it all went to hell. Snacking went overboard, meal sizes were ridiculous, and then I got my period. Just call me camel this week. I weighed myself and it says 286.8. Fuck.
I am mad. Mad at myself for not staying on track. I did it for months last winter and my weight dropped easily. People keep saying oh don’t worry, you are just at a plateau, but I know better. I am being lazy. I am not planning my meals ahead of time, I am not using my scale to measure my food, I am not keeping track of my calories, I am not walking every day.
So how do I get out of this funk? Same as I did last winter when I made up my mind to change my life. I write it all down. I make my charts, I keep track of calories, I plan my meals, and now I think of Tina kicking my ass if I don’t hit my 50lbs and meet her in Edmonton.
This morning I ate my breakfast and after I write this I will put it all into my food planner online. I made Matt take the truck to work so I will have to walk to playgroup, even if it does rain which looks probable. I am going to print off my goal chart and put it on the fridge. I am going to make Matt take his granola bars to work so I don’t snack on them. I am going to make my lunch before I leave the house this morning so I am not rushed when I come back after playgroup. I am going to plan my supper and take whatever it is I need out of the freezer. I am going to put my kitchen scale on the counter to remind myself to use it.
I am going to do it all.