Thank You, Indigo

Indigo Sweetwater

An amazing woman.

I never met you in person. Yet,

My home is filled with you.

Everywhere I turn, I am reminded of your presence even though you were never present in my home. Rarely could an entire month go by without an item showing up in the mailbox. Sometimes a postcard from a far off corner of the world. Other times a parcel filled with sunshine.

Rubbermaids with her signature label have been coming my way for the last five years.

Fur coats, toys, patterns.

Love.

My sewing room has been all about you for the last week. Nine hoodies…. NINE! Who the heck places an order for nine hoodies after already having five made for them? You, of course. Because you were always thinking of that newest babe that would be needing a parcel sent their way. I sure hope David knows where to send them because I have your order almost complete. How wonderful; parcels from Indigo will still be coming in the mail after your death. Whoever receives them will be filled with some real joy I bet.

Only Indigo could pick cow print fake fur and know it would look great!

My heart is filled with you.

You encouraged and supported my family and the decision to leave my career and make my sons the priority. The loss you experienced ages ago helped me realize that my boys are way more important than any job could ever be.

My own little dirt cowboys will know of you.

You nurtured my creativity and gave me the nudge I needed to pursue my sewing hobby. Thank you for always listening to my questions and being so full of crafting knowledge that you always had an answer for me.

I hope some of your creative spirit is on its way to me.

I am selfish though.

I wasn’t done with you yet.

You promised to visit and sew with me.

We had plans for seal fur purses, parkas and tea.

Traditional Inuit sewing kit you sent me- inspiration.

The world is filled with you.

How did you know how to make each person in your life feel so special, so blessed, so loved? I want that ability. Your page on facebook was always filled with thank-yous. Thank you for sending the…. Thank you for the visit… Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Northern blog were filled with comments from you. How many blog posts are out there thanking you for some thing or another? I know I did a few.

You are part of so many lives. Lives that have been brought closer because of your presense.

How could one woman bring so much joy to the world? I know you brought a lot of joy to mine.

Forty eight hours. What? No, she can’t be sick. What? No, she can’t be gone.

I sent you a letter on Saturday telling you all of the things I wished I had said sooner. It didn’t reach you in time. Oh, Indigo. Always teaching me something.

Although I wish you could have given this lesson in a different way.