Again, the reason we are down here is so I can undergo weight loss surgery. Tomorrow morning at 8am I will be at the clinic and I should be back at the hotel by noon. I have gone through all of my pre-op appointments and I think I am ready to go. My stomach is full of butterflies, so good thing it is getting cut out tomorrow! :)
This is going to be life changing for me. I honestly don't think anyone who isn't obese can understand what it is like and how it will change my life. I was 100lbs when I was 9 and 200lbs by the time I was 15 and 300lbs by my late twenties. Go ahead, strap 100lbs onto your body and try carrying it around for a day and see how you do. It is exhausting, but it is all that I know. I do not know what it is like to be an age appropriate weight. I need to lose nearly 160lbs to get to a proper body weight.
I am not doing this as an easy way out. It definitely isn't, for anyone who has that thought in the back of their mind. This is going to be hard work. I have failed at dieting, and it is not because I am lazy or lack motivation. It is because I have an addiction and having this surgery is going to give me a tool to help me manage my eating in the future. This is a great website that is very informative on all forms of weight loss surgery if any of you readers want to educate yourself more on the matter.
The support I have received from friends has been phenomenal. I don't think many of our family members are on board yet, but hopefully as I go through this process they will come around.
I have been reading a couple of books about life after weight loss surgery. It is going to be hard for sure. It says that people who have been obese their entire lives go through a lot of identity issues once they have lost a lot of weight. Also anxiety, depression, loneliness rear their ugly heads once you can no longer turn to food for comfort or to hide from life. I will be outside of my comfort zone and I just hope I don't turn into a complete wreck!! I have done a lot of work to ensure I have the help needed to get me through after my surgery.
Tomorrow is the start of a new life for me. Not that I don't love my life right now, but it will be a life that is much healthier.
|Riding a ferry just for shits and giggles! We went across the bay and right back again.|
|Boat, boats and more boats! Our hotel is just a block away from the water front and we have been enjoying walks along the pier.|
|Thank you Matt for being such an strong support for me to lean on!|
|Flowers left in my room from the Faro Girls! Thank you Michelle, Heather, Brittany, Sarah, Erica, Nicole, Tina and Lorraine!|
|More flowers for me! These are from a dear friend that I met while living in Kugluktuk who now lives in the Vancouver Area. Thank you Tarama, Jason, Garrett and Tanner!|