I booked this surgery back in the spring and the date has creeped up on me. Well, it has felt as though it has taken forever to get here, but as I get closer to leaving I feel like I don't have enough time to get ready!
While I am excited for this huge change, I am also an anxious wreck. Anxiety nearly gets the best of me on a good day (I am a wee bit of a control freak) and with so many unknowns regarding surgery, it is taking a toll on me. I don't know how my recovery will be, no clue on how well I will heal, or what the heck will I even look like when it is all done??!!
Prior to weight loss surgery, I would have dealt with my anxiety by eating and hiding from the world. Now, I just turn more into a control freak and try and keep myself as busy as possible (until 7pm when I don't leave the comfort of sofa). All of my food is logged with precision, lists are made (I have three on the go currently), and if stuff isn't in its place I just may wig out a little. I think Matt may be researching "easy ways to dispose of a body" whenever he uses the computer.
Just twenty days until a crap load of excess skin is cleavered off my body. Exciting, but scary as shit too.