Tonight, my kids broke my heart. I was giving them hugs before bed and reminding them that we are leaving tomorrow and they were just so sad. It really hit me then as to how long I am going to be away from them and how much I will miss them and their antics.
We will be gone for nearly three weeks and even when I do get home, I won't be in any shape to really play with them. I feel a tremendous amount of guilt at leaving them behind and that I will be out of commission for so long. Although, maybe it will be a good time to start reading a real novel with them as I am laying on the sofa. I have facetime set up the ipads so the boys can call me up anytime.
Tomorrow we drive to Whitehorse and Sunday we fly to Los Angeles. Pre-op appointments Monday and surgery on Wednesday. Surgery is just five sleeps away.
I have most everything done and all arrangements have been made to cover things while I am gone. My mom arrived this evening and she is here with the boys while we are away. They are pretty excited to have grandma time and I am sure she is going to spoil them rotten while we are gone.
The case of wine I purchased has been given out to friends. I am hoping to bribe them all into helping out with the kids while I am gone and also once I get home. Everything that I have read and everyone that I have talked about this type of surgery all say the same thing- recovery will be hell and that I need to not over do it. That is hard for this squirrel on crack to understand. I just keep thinking by week three I will be back to normal. Yeah... it just isn't going to be the case. I hate asking people for help and I feel guilty about it all.
But nothing I can do about it now. I have to trust that my kids will have a good time, that the things I have asked people to do will be done, that my surgery will go off without a hitch, and that things will work out find when I get home.
So off I go! I will have internet the entire time and will be posting a lot, I am sure. Thank you everyone who has made this possible and offered so much support to me along the way.